Most people define friendship as:

a true friend is someone who sticks by you when you are down and celebrates with you when you are up. It's someone you trust. It is someone who understands you, knows the real you and appreciates the person you are.

How would you define friendship??

Tears

Sunday 28 July 2013

Now that I think I have cried enough in the past, for my CCA, well I was wrong... For both the days I spend in malaysia, I cried quite a lot I must say... She was like suffering with tubes inserted into her, couldn't eat this or that and most of all she is getting skinny...

The first time I cried was when I visited her for the very first time ever since she was hospitalized, she just woke up and when we talked to her, she was like who are we... I was really very shocked...!! And the next day, I was on the verge of crying when standing far away from her sight but she suddenly said that she wanted to see me and I cried in front of her....

The tears stored inside of me has left and I felt very comfortable but sad that I can only visit her for this two days only, as there's a very high chance that I cannot leave Singapore any moments due to the schedule of my parents... :( I also learn that my tears are not finished but store for the right moment to come out.

So stressful...

Thursday 25 July 2013

This week so busy, can't get anything done... Going to go crazy at this rate! I need a break from my studies! There is not time for me to take a break! Parents endless of pressure and nagging... Even though I told them that I needed a break from my studies, they continued to nag about the benefits of studies.. I'm a human, not a robot! Why you guys can take a break while I can't?! What's the difference us? I have everything you guys have!

Lots of things left undone and tomorrow there's tuition, and a geography test late in the night... Most of the  days need to stay back or should I be more exact, everyday in this week except for today! 'O' level coming, I know... but I'm seriously in need for a break, I just want to relax myself from everything!

Band concert, limelight

Wednesday 24 July 2013

This coming Saturday.... The band concert, limelight, clashes with my return to Malaysia.... It seems like there is a very high chance of me skipping the limelight and go and visit my grandma, my money was kind of like wasted but it's okay! I can still use it for other purposes :)

Even though it would be a shame not to attend the limelight... but it's okay if I'm going to see my grandma which I have not seen for quite a few months... Just hope that she will be alright and get well soon! And also hope that everyone on my maternal grandma side will get well soon and have a healthy body and life. :)

Miss her!!

Tuesday 23 July 2013

My eyes started to get teary when talking about her... She was feeling unwell and is in the hospital and because of the busy lifestyle of Singapore, my family couldn't find anytime off from our scehdue and couldn't visit her... We decided to go visit her this coming Sunday which is not confirm yet but mostly, to visit her as we were always in Singapore except for Chinese new year where we will go back and visit her. And it is always her travelling to Singapore to visit us due to our just schedule despite her weak legs and age. Sometimes I really felt very bad as there were times where she came but couldn't get any chance to interact as I will always be spending most of my time out in school, and whenever I return she will be in bed already...

She wasn't feeling very well for the past few weeks and she even mention on the phone that she wanted to see me but understand that I have lots of things going on...  She must be very lonely but couldn't say anything to us as she was scare of troubling us by making us go back and fro just to visit her....

Just by talking on the phone must be tiring for her as when she was talking to me, her voice sound very weak and tired..... I felt bad when I was talking to her as when she wanted someone to be beside her, there wasn't anyone there and there are lots of things happening this year... it is a long long story.....

Just hope that she can get better ASAP and live a long long life!! I love her the most!! :)

Need a break!!

Finally, some time for me...!! This week is going to be so so so busy!! And I hate it! Firstly there are rehearsals for awards nite on Monday and Wednesday, and it lasts for a very long time.... :( And today, there is the listening comprehensive which lasted quite a while, but it's okay as this listening comprehensive is much easier than the school's! :P And on Friday, there is the actual awards nite and tuition!!

The only free day is on Thursday which I hope they wouls not come up with last minute lessons... and if they are going to, I will die at this rate... Just by staying back for just two days in a row, I'm dying now... :(

Got tons of homework to complete as well... Test tomorrow too!! Dying!! Give me a break! I didn't even know that going to school is so tiring until today.... How I wish I can become an adult right now and skip all these...!! At this rate, I'm going to break down both mentally and physically!!

Shoes!

Saturday 20 July 2013

Went out with my friend to buy a post of shoes to suit my dress for the limelight which is a band concert for my school... Didn't expect myself to buy a pair of heels....

Wanted to buy a pair of flats at first but due to my toes, I didn't buy it.... Cause when wearing that flats, my toe look funny. So I just bought a pair of heels which is more comfortable and nice. We also joke around when shopping for my shoes! :)

I must say that this friends of my is a very good friend because I'm quite a picky person and had a very hard time deciding on things, but she didn't say anything and continue to help me look out for more shoes. Had a great time shopping with her :) Thanks a lot friend!